My words exactly..

NOT!!!!

 So, WE have been living in my parents basement for almost a year now. And every day it is getting more and more frustrating.. Im constantly bieng told that my parenting skills are less than satisfactory. Especially when it comes to one kid in particular. Xander, I am never right. I am always doing something wrong. Including but not limited too, School, Discipline. I was told "I think your wrong" and then hung up on. Its starting to wear on me, I feel my skin getting thinner as the days get closer and closer to a year mark. I dont know if we will ever be able to move out..
  I cannot wait for the day, when IM the boss of my own kids.. In my own household.. Hopefully soon. WE have almost paid off some debt and then we are on our own! *crosses fingers*
   I hate to say it, but moving back to Utah was our biggest mistake.. We had such a good life there. Money was often tight, but Jason was home EVERYDAY. I had friends that absolutly loved me. I was so priveladged to get to know them.. I miss them..
   I have made one really good friend next door and Its made everyday life a lot easier. But still.. Im ready to get back to My OWN life.. and MY OWN Rules!!

Feel Like Ive been doing a little of This LAtely..

"I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere"
           Thanks Adele..

Mistakes

Making Mistakes is the one thing im a Master at..
Knowing I have crossed the line of wrong doing, Usually fully aware but with the atitude that It doesnt matter..
Usually When I make a mistake, I make up for it, by apologizing fixing it or whatever..

But what do you do when your not the one making a mistake... What do you do when you are witnessing it and sitting back and not doing anything. Does that make you just as guilty?
What if its a mistake that will change the course of someones life? If you see a friend making a choice that will effect a marriage, or a child.. Knowing that its wrong..

What do you do? Im so lost and confused by what I know that i feel like I should say something.. Its shaking me to my core.. Its rattling my emotion and its making me crazy..
DO I keep my mouth shut? Or do I speak my mind??

I hate you..

Water...
Running...
Weight...
food... (okay, I hate that I love food)
Cafe Rio...
Taco Bell...
Sconecutter...
Brownies...
The list could go on forever..
So Im going to start loving..
Broccoli...
Bean-o (just in case)...
Running shoes..
Treadmills..
5ks...
Water Bottles...
and most of all
Skinniness!! Whoot.
Heres to not eating Lemoncello Sorbet 6 times a week..
and not having anything after 7 pm..
Except maybe the occasional late night dinner with friends or V-C lovely ness.. (hey a girl can only cut out so much without going crazy!)
Maybe by this time next year i will be one skinny girl!!

Shoes Shoes Shoes

(This one's for you Logan..) :)
It's a very well known fact that I like shoes.. Of all Kinds, Tall Shoes, Short shoes, flip flips, Boots, Ballerina Flats, Wedges, Spikes, Pumps, Tennis Shoes, Running shoes.. I could list them all day.. ;) I can pretty much to anything in a heal and Even more in my black Roxy flip flops.. I ran around New York in a pair of Pink and Blue Plaid Galoshes.. So I ran across this blog of a friends back in Montrose and she had this on it..



I just had to smile.. Because its soooooo true.. I think I might go change my life today.. Buy myself a new pair of Ballerina Flats and call it a day.. Its still REALLY REALLY early in the morning, So I might Go take a nap before..
Love to all that Loves me back..
Kat. ;D

RIP Jason Ryan Erickson

Jason Erickson
Sept-Feb..

Its that time a year people!!
Im officially a Widow.. As If Not seeing him 4 days a week wasnt bad enough, Now all day Sunday is no longer set aside for family.. Its set aside for... Wait for it...
You guessed it





Football....

Time Travel..

If there is one time period I would time travel to it would have to be the 16th Century.. The one person I would pall around with would be william shakespeare.. Absolutely the most Amazing, Romantic, Enlightened man I think has ever existed in time.
His words have transcended time, they have crossed boundaries of race, Love and Religion.. Who doesnt know "Romeo, Romeo. Wherefore art thou Romeo?" Or "To be, or not to be that is the question" How many times have we heard "parting is such sweet sorrow" or "Double, double toil and trouble Fire burn, and cauldron bubble."
He seems so amazing.. I kinda wish that I could speak to him.. Maybe one day Ill go to the wall of Juliet in Verona.. Write her a letter. Im not sure what I would write, what I would say..
Its amazing to me that Romeo and Juliet are just a story.. a play, burned into the hearts of everyone who has heard the words spoken by Leo Dicaprio. "A thousand times the worse, to want thy light. Love goes toward love as schoolboys from their books,
But love from love, toward school with heavy looks."
To think that the love story isnt true.. that the Love story is just that.. a Story.
Well anyway.. I wish I could have a fairy god mother.. bippidy Boppidy Booping me into the past.. For just one day, in the presence of William Shakespeare..

this is absolutely my favorite quote of all time Its from Hamlet, Act 2 Scene 2..

"Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt that the sun doth move,
Doubt truth to be a liar,
But never doubt I love."

Amazing..